I knew Sara had cancer, as I constantly visit her web sites but this news has hit me hard.
The Silence of the Dying by author, Sara Douglass
[Today I speak as one among the dying. Two years ago I was diagnosed with cancer. Six months ago it came back. It is going to kill me at some stage. Now everyone wants a date, an expected life span, an answer to the ‘how long have you got?’ question. I don’t know. I’m sorry to be inconvenient. I am not in danger of imminent demise, but I will not live very long.
Now, with death lurking somewhere in the house, I have begun to notice death all about me. I know I experienced it when first I was diagnosed with cancer.
I am sick to death of comforting people when all I want is to be comforted. I know I face a long and lonely death and no, I don’t think I should just accept that. I don’t think I should keep silent about it.
My mother, who died of the same cancer which will kill me, kept mostly stoic through three years of tremendous suffering.
The great irony is that now I face the same death, from the same cancer. ]
Notes from Nonsuch Kitchen Garden
The Silence of the Dying by author, Sara Douglass
[Today I speak as one among the dying. Two years ago I was diagnosed with cancer. Six months ago it came back. It is going to kill me at some stage. Now everyone wants a date, an expected life span, an answer to the ‘how long have you got?’ question. I don’t know. I’m sorry to be inconvenient. I am not in danger of imminent demise, but I will not live very long.
Now, with death lurking somewhere in the house, I have begun to notice death all about me. I know I experienced it when first I was diagnosed with cancer.
I am sick to death of comforting people when all I want is to be comforted. I know I face a long and lonely death and no, I don’t think I should just accept that. I don’t think I should keep silent about it.
My mother, who died of the same cancer which will kill me, kept mostly stoic through three years of tremendous suffering.
The great irony is that now I face the same death, from the same cancer. ]
Notes from Nonsuch Kitchen Garden