I will apologise in advance for what is a bit of a long ramble - but it is closely linked to writing
Over a month ago I finally flipped my 'Imperial Septim of chance' to decide what my next primary project was going to be, my current WIP in the 'editing and sending out to Beta's at the moment' stage. It came up Dragons so it is now 'The Singing Star' (most definitely just a working title.)
A lot of the plot was already in place, but as I went over it again a new piece - an epiphany - hit me. Something was going to happen to a main character in her childhood, that was going to have a direct consequence on her right at the end.
The event at the start was sexual abuse - or at least someone was going to attempt to sexually abuse her.
I was going to say that I wasn't going to dwell on such things- the event would take place 'off stage' - and the plot mechanic that I came up with was not a clichéd 'She gets her revenge' story line (although there is retribution on other levels. Too complicated to explain here.) But the plot point - I've not revealed it all - makes loads of sense to the story and the society that my characters were in (an overgrown and wild penal colony type world) would make things like child sexual and physical abuse endemic. My writing style, I suppose, is to have a degree of realism about what humanity is likely to be and capable of - both positive and negative.
But also I was going to say that I instantly also had a knot of disquiet about having this. Partly this was because - fundamentally I was writing a piece of entertainment - can you square something so dark as child sexual abuse and the consequences of such things on characters in later life with a good read? Some would say you can't. And perhaps I would gloss over it too much and therefore portray it in a too simplistic or wrong-headed manner. Also I have never experienced any abuse personally - although I have occasionally stumbled across the occasional dark moments with friends - it is not something that is generally talked about.
So I was thinking hard about this. I thought it would also make a good serious topic amongst us writers on how to approach really difficult subjects, and what other published writers have done.
Now I'm not religious, so no gods/god, but being Fortean I do think there's something in like a 'Cosmic Joker': a higher power who is responsible for twists of fate and acts upon his victims at the most opportune or inopportune times.
I had jury service. So I put the above posting on hold and did my duty.
I got a nine day trial. I shall not give many details but in summary it was a historic child sex abuse case, daughter accusing the father of multiple rapes when she was ~12 in the early 1970's. It was only after the case had finished (we returned on guilty verdict on one rape charge btw) that I realised just how tough those two weeks had been on me. My conscious and moral centre is clear on my decision, but it was a traumatic experience overall emotionally, so I've been keeping my head down and just thinking and talking it through. But god knows what the family had and will go through because of all this - it was one of these cases where really no answer or verdict was going to 'solve' anything.
So I got some insight into child abuse - when it happens in real life today - and it's made that knot of disquiet tighter, more complicated and larger. It will make me think even more carefully about what I'm putting into this story.
Anyway I would really appreciate any thoughts that this essay has generated in the good folks here at Chrons.
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P.S. While I was waiting about in the Jury room I had a few books to read, one was Stephen King's The Shining. Frankly the most horrific chapter in it for me is not the supernatural creatures and goings-on in the Overlook hotel, but the chapter where we get inside Jack's mind as he breaks Danny's arm - a graphic example of actually showing child abuse. Also I watched The Girl with the Dragon Tatoo on the telly for the first time - again packed with child abuse...
Over a month ago I finally flipped my 'Imperial Septim of chance' to decide what my next primary project was going to be, my current WIP in the 'editing and sending out to Beta's at the moment' stage. It came up Dragons so it is now 'The Singing Star' (most definitely just a working title.)
A lot of the plot was already in place, but as I went over it again a new piece - an epiphany - hit me. Something was going to happen to a main character in her childhood, that was going to have a direct consequence on her right at the end.
The event at the start was sexual abuse - or at least someone was going to attempt to sexually abuse her.
I was going to say that I wasn't going to dwell on such things- the event would take place 'off stage' - and the plot mechanic that I came up with was not a clichéd 'She gets her revenge' story line (although there is retribution on other levels. Too complicated to explain here.) But the plot point - I've not revealed it all - makes loads of sense to the story and the society that my characters were in (an overgrown and wild penal colony type world) would make things like child sexual and physical abuse endemic. My writing style, I suppose, is to have a degree of realism about what humanity is likely to be and capable of - both positive and negative.
But also I was going to say that I instantly also had a knot of disquiet about having this. Partly this was because - fundamentally I was writing a piece of entertainment - can you square something so dark as child sexual abuse and the consequences of such things on characters in later life with a good read? Some would say you can't. And perhaps I would gloss over it too much and therefore portray it in a too simplistic or wrong-headed manner. Also I have never experienced any abuse personally - although I have occasionally stumbled across the occasional dark moments with friends - it is not something that is generally talked about.
So I was thinking hard about this. I thought it would also make a good serious topic amongst us writers on how to approach really difficult subjects, and what other published writers have done.
Now I'm not religious, so no gods/god, but being Fortean I do think there's something in like a 'Cosmic Joker': a higher power who is responsible for twists of fate and acts upon his victims at the most opportune or inopportune times.
I had jury service. So I put the above posting on hold and did my duty.
I got a nine day trial. I shall not give many details but in summary it was a historic child sex abuse case, daughter accusing the father of multiple rapes when she was ~12 in the early 1970's. It was only after the case had finished (we returned on guilty verdict on one rape charge btw) that I realised just how tough those two weeks had been on me. My conscious and moral centre is clear on my decision, but it was a traumatic experience overall emotionally, so I've been keeping my head down and just thinking and talking it through. But god knows what the family had and will go through because of all this - it was one of these cases where really no answer or verdict was going to 'solve' anything.
So I got some insight into child abuse - when it happens in real life today - and it's made that knot of disquiet tighter, more complicated and larger. It will make me think even more carefully about what I'm putting into this story.
Anyway I would really appreciate any thoughts that this essay has generated in the good folks here at Chrons.
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P.S. While I was waiting about in the Jury room I had a few books to read, one was Stephen King's The Shining. Frankly the most horrific chapter in it for me is not the supernatural creatures and goings-on in the Overlook hotel, but the chapter where we get inside Jack's mind as he breaks Danny's arm - a graphic example of actually showing child abuse. Also I watched The Girl with the Dragon Tatoo on the telly for the first time - again packed with child abuse...