The Eclipse itself was amazing, though I missed much of it...
It still felt cold as it was. What I didn't expect was how much of a sudden temperature drop their would actually be. So for me that was surprising, yet what really got me, even though the eclipse forming looked cool, was the shadow. Now I expected "as told" that it would get slightly darker, so as the eclipse neared I'd look out and at best though there was a hue shift it didn't gradually shift to twilight. Just as the eclipse reached totality perhaps in about 15 seconds began getting much darker, and then in what seemed a couple seconds, it became very dark.
The sudden drop in temperature, the air/breeze seemed to still, and then it went dark--dark so fast took me to a really bad place in an instant … I know I gasped and held my breath and became very rigid, even clenched my fists so hard that my nails cut my palms … In other words, I just seized up.
To me it was absolutely terrifying and very confusing. On the one hand I knew logically what was happening, yet on the other I had all these old feelings and sensations just hit me, so it really made it easy for me to understand just how scary it might have been for more primitive peoples, and can see how they might have felt the world was ending.
Logically, in retrospect, it was amazing. There was the sun's corona just like you see in all the photos, you could see the stars (and planets), all around the horizon looked like a sunset, it was night time dark, cold, blah, blah, blah, all the same stuff you hear everyone say.
To me—from some old stuff—it felt like I was right on the cusp of dying. I had proof from all the memories that came rushing back. I became very cold, all of the light seemed to race away from me as it became dark, and once I could force myself to look at the eclipse and the horizon, it made it even worse. To me, it felt like I was in the middle of oblivion. The sunset all around in the distance, I just knew if you tried to walk to it to escape--though miles/days away--would find the oblivion moving with you never able to reach the edge. Worse still, the moon looked like a black hole as though oblivion stretched on forever upward.
Finally as to that point, a warm rush of air must have swept up the face of the cliff from the valley as warmer air rose. What it seemed like to me was that it was the beginning of some wind that would suck me up into that black moon, and I expected that any second I was about to be.
At first I thought it was Coyotes singing, yet from down in the valley below me and up behind on the ridge I could hear people faintly scream out and cheer. ... Instead it simply reinforced my sensation as I recall muffled sounds and whispers in times past, and those faint cheers far in the distance sounded to me like lamentations of millions far off in Hell. At that moment, I'm glad no one touched me as during such times I just start swinging. It's just reflex, I guess, as a last chance to try and fight your way out of whatever. So for me the eclipse was over two minutes of pure terror.
All of that said, I experienced something I never have. As the eclipse ended (which I missed most of it staring at my feet and down into the valley), within a couple seconds it seemed the darkness quickly vanished, though perhaps imagined I could see the shadow race down the mountain and across the valley "away from me" (big point there), the heat and the wind picked up, and the cheers from far off and even from all the guys in our group snapped me out of it as though signaling that it was all over.
Understand, in my past after such a time, you'd slowly recoup and recover gradually it hitting you that you survived. This moment it felt like instant salvation. The sun felt hot and life giving, it was so bright that it was blinding, and all of the darkness and muffled silence fled, leaving you alive and intact in an instant. "To me," that moment was so relieving that I wanted to break down and sob. I was so close to tears that the two older guys near me looked like they were about to cry (due to me about to), yet so relived you laugh instead.
Unlike most people I suspect, for me it was a VERY primal/primitive experience. Due to my past, it really did seem like it was the end of the world or at least my life, and then there was almost instant redemption and salvation. I missed a lot of it due to that, yet on the other hand, I maybe noticed some things others didn't, and at the very least walked away with a very real sense of the fear and terror less developed peoples might have felt.
It was really amazing beyond description and expectation. I'm glad I experienced it.