A Gun isn't Strong as Me
Here's why I put down the gun:
I heard the tell-tale cracking. I heard the leaves. I heard trunks stripping bark off. I heard the dumb oaks walking. I heard the world ending. I heard . . .
I heard that punk band I used to love when I was a kid. I was, like, 17.
And I didn't want to think about how death was coming.
I remember some girl--God, I think her name was Ruth or Amy--rich dad, poor mom, broken broken home . . . Same old ****, new butterfly. I wanted to give her this roll of quarters my folks were keeping. This stamp I thought she’d like that I found across the street. Whatever I thought was good, you know?
I've never heard quiet drums before, but she played quiet drums, with her wrists uncertain, not quite on beat, she’s holding the drumsticks like pencils, but--you leaned in to hear. And that was really something.
So, there's people screaming. La di da. I'll be one of them. Soon, from the sounds of it.
I'm gonna--humph--frisbee my gun out the window. I struggle with the weight of it, because all the pollen makes you sluggish.
I'm fighting back, though. I can’t win shooting. I’ll win remembering.
They'll wrap the house in cellulose soon enough. They'll drip water all over the tape decks as they squeeze . . . *play*. They'll never understand the Beatles. They’ll never hear the music.
They'll never hear my girl, with her legs smooth and sweating. They'll stuff acorns down my throat, and the last thing I'll think is . . .
C#, Gb5, tat-tat-a-tick. Snare, snare, snare. “This song is about nothing, for the nothing people.”
That’s where I was, when I died.
I was there.
Here's why I put down the gun:
I heard the tell-tale cracking. I heard the leaves. I heard trunks stripping bark off. I heard the dumb oaks walking. I heard the world ending. I heard . . .
I heard that punk band I used to love when I was a kid. I was, like, 17.
And I didn't want to think about how death was coming.
I remember some girl--God, I think her name was Ruth or Amy--rich dad, poor mom, broken broken home . . . Same old ****, new butterfly. I wanted to give her this roll of quarters my folks were keeping. This stamp I thought she’d like that I found across the street. Whatever I thought was good, you know?
I've never heard quiet drums before, but she played quiet drums, with her wrists uncertain, not quite on beat, she’s holding the drumsticks like pencils, but--you leaned in to hear. And that was really something.
So, there's people screaming. La di da. I'll be one of them. Soon, from the sounds of it.
I'm gonna--humph--frisbee my gun out the window. I struggle with the weight of it, because all the pollen makes you sluggish.
I'm fighting back, though. I can’t win shooting. I’ll win remembering.
They'll wrap the house in cellulose soon enough. They'll drip water all over the tape decks as they squeeze . . . *play*. They'll never understand the Beatles. They’ll never hear the music.
They'll never hear my girl, with her legs smooth and sweating. They'll stuff acorns down my throat, and the last thing I'll think is . . .
C#, Gb5, tat-tat-a-tick. Snare, snare, snare. “This song is about nothing, for the nothing people.”
That’s where I was, when I died.
I was there.