Jesse's Hand
“Jesse’s in the water again and he hasn’t got his head.”
There’s not a lot you can follow that with, so I go for: “Really, dear?”
Emily nods and points to the puddle trying to be a pond. Last night’s rain must have been heavier than I thought and-
There’s a figure reflecting in the water. But, there isn’t anyone else out here? I watch as the distorted reflection waves. Emily shouts and waves back.
“Did you see?”
Yes, I did - and now we’re leaving: “No dear. You must be overtired.”
Liar. Easier to tell fibs than face a child’s questions.
“But he’s there, mummy! Look!”
I can’t stop myself: Jesse’s reflection has something in its hand. I see it fire. There’s a flash in the air opposite and something hits me really hard. Emily screams as the shot echoes. I fly backward to sprawl in a bigger puddle with a tremendous splash. That splash sprays muddy water over bushes, trees, and two figures I can’t see and this is too much I need to rest.
*
“Mummy! Mummy! Wake up!”
Emily’s holding my hand too hard. I sit up and feel cold water against my skin. I stop trying to look about as searing pain accompanies a grinding in my chest. Something’s broken. Taking my scarf, I tightly wrap the lower part of my ribcage.
I guess Jesse and co ran off when they KO’d an adult.
“Mummy?”
“I’m fine. Don’t worry.”
“I’m not.”
“Is Jesse still in the water?”
“Who’s Jesse?”
You know that three-in-the-morning phantom terror that your child is irrevocably gone? As I look into Emily’s eyes and meet a stranger’s gaze, I feel it rise and know the screaming may never stop.
“Jesse’s in the water again and he hasn’t got his head.”
There’s not a lot you can follow that with, so I go for: “Really, dear?”
Emily nods and points to the puddle trying to be a pond. Last night’s rain must have been heavier than I thought and-
There’s a figure reflecting in the water. But, there isn’t anyone else out here? I watch as the distorted reflection waves. Emily shouts and waves back.
“Did you see?”
Yes, I did - and now we’re leaving: “No dear. You must be overtired.”
Liar. Easier to tell fibs than face a child’s questions.
“But he’s there, mummy! Look!”
I can’t stop myself: Jesse’s reflection has something in its hand. I see it fire. There’s a flash in the air opposite and something hits me really hard. Emily screams as the shot echoes. I fly backward to sprawl in a bigger puddle with a tremendous splash. That splash sprays muddy water over bushes, trees, and two figures I can’t see and this is too much I need to rest.
*
“Mummy! Mummy! Wake up!”
Emily’s holding my hand too hard. I sit up and feel cold water against my skin. I stop trying to look about as searing pain accompanies a grinding in my chest. Something’s broken. Taking my scarf, I tightly wrap the lower part of my ribcage.
I guess Jesse and co ran off when they KO’d an adult.
“Mummy?”
“I’m fine. Don’t worry.”
“I’m not.”
“Is Jesse still in the water?”
“Who’s Jesse?”
You know that three-in-the-morning phantom terror that your child is irrevocably gone? As I look into Emily’s eyes and meet a stranger’s gaze, I feel it rise and know the screaming may never stop.