Ram Dass “Still Here”
A year or two ago I became very interested in reading personal accounts of the ageing process, specifically people's experience of the difficulties, both physical and psychological, and of the accompanying changes in perspective. I'd reached an age in which limitations had definitely begun to set in and was interested in reading some personal road maps rather than glib self-help manuals. I'd also begun to find the process of the stripping away of my previous layers of identity, of changing perception of time, of reduced capacity and energy levels, surprisingly rewarding (fortunately I do not experience physical pain, and long may that last….). It seems to me that there is something inherent in the ageing process that is an opening rather than a shutting down, and this needs acknowledgement.
The most helpful book by far that was suggested was Ram Dass "Still Here". I had some resistance to reading it - I'm not sure why as in the past I've enjoyed other books by him - but I've been reading it over the past two weeks, and it’s the only book that I've come across that addresses the issues that interest me. Naturally it's not perfect, but it's good enough.
As you probably know, Ram Dass first came to attention as Richard Alpert when he was kicked out of Harvard alongside Timothy Leary for their somewhat ham-fisted encouragement of and research into LSD. He changed his name after meeting his guru/teacher in India. In 1997, age 65, he was a good way into writing this book about getting older when he decided to try to tune into what it felt like to be really old: bizzarely, while doing this he suffered a major stroke and was pretty much wheelchair bound needing ongoing care for the rest of his life (he lived on until last December). The book as a whole is of course deepened considerably by that turn of events.
While reading it, I also re-read the first five volumes of Calvin and Hobbes after a gap of a good few years.