But what happens afterwards? When our few years are gone? Darkness? Extinction?
The universe ceases to exist, when we're not there to perceive it?
If you mean our few years as in my century (I'll be lucky) on this planet then I don't agree that it'll cease to exist, we know that Newton percieved a universe and it hasn't ceased when he died, it is still here for you and I to see. If you mean the few years (several billion or more) that the known universe has existed then I don't know, possibly.
As for the beauty and complexity of the world, I am stunned by it but I find the idea that it evolved naturally from simplistic rules and basic matter/energy much more brilliant and wonderful than the, frankly mundane, idea that some great conscious being created it.
Are you more amazed by a random pattern of twigs on the forest that spells out the word 'bottom' or by a person arranging them that way for comic effect?
I have not acknowledged that my morals do not apply universally
I'm not sure that this means there is a subjective morality, isn't the meaning of a subjective morality one that does apply universally, which we have (mostly) agreed doesn't exist, even in the most extreme of cases.
I have, for a long time, felt that everything is relative to the observer and so there was only ever one crime that I could not justify in some extreme situation and that was rape (in my opinion the worst crime that anyone can commit on a single victim);
theft - stealing bread to feed the starving
murder - killing Hitler (my views may have changed but 15 years ago I thought differently)
dishonouring parents - (sorry to get biblical) some parents do not deserve the honour or respect of their children for crimes they have committed against them
and so on...
But rape was one where the only justifiable situation was the end of the human race without procreation and that was much more sci-fi and less real life than any of the other examples (if we swap Hitler with any evil self confessed mass murder/bad guy)
Then I thought what situation could anyone (except the rapist) think that rape was a good thing, and I realised that a child born of rape would (neccessarily for their own self worth) see that the rape of their mother by their father created them and so would have to be good rather than bad. A disturbing thought and a controversial idea, I know, but never-the-less a conclusion I have come to. It does not mean I think it is ok to rape, but from the POV of the child the act of forced copulation was not entirely bad.