Just a quick question. How do you guys cope with feeling inferior to your author hero? I know in my heart that I just have to keep writing and writing and reading and practicing, but lately I just can't see how I can ever create something as amazing as my literary hero. My work feels lame in comparison, though I won't ever give up on it. But honestly, I will never write something so wonderful. Which isn't the best when I'm trying to write epic fantasy and I'm feeling like the characters and plot I love will never be as good as it needs to be...
Anyone have any advice outside of "grin and keep going"? How do you all cope?
Oh I can feel your pain, Leisha--but I got past it myself. It came down to
definitions for me. One of my author heroes is
David Farland. I love his Runelords series, as do my kids--then one day, a mutual friend brought us together and we had a chance to get to know one another. He's an incredible man--kind, brilliant, insightful and he gave me a great deal of encouragement. He told my wife and I that we had NY Times Bestselling potential, but we wanted to self-publish instead.
Now, I'm sharing this specifically because during the process, I had to define my "WHY's" for
everything. I was a cartoonist before I became a YA fiction writer. I self-published this same story in cartoon form and for a time, had readers in 60 countries. I was never rich or famous, but it kept growing and I was very happy. Everyone said I couldn't do it--but again, my comic book hero (Dave Sim of Cerebus) actually took the time to teach me through letters. Showed me how to be the best I could be.
Then he told me to run as fast as I could.
My
definition of "success"
never had anything to do with David. That meant my books never had to be as "good" as David's either. I stopped comparing, because it was silly to do so. I'm NOT David Farland! I'm Jaime Buckley and I'm writing because that's what I was meant to do.
No, I'm not perfect. But I learn and grow and keep applying new knowledge to my craft. However, as I give this all I have, I get some interesting feedback from readers. Here's a community review from Goodreads:
Now, in my opinion, Jaime Buckley isn't an Ernest Miller Hemingway, but he's making the most of what he has. You can tell he has a limited vocabulary, but the writing gets better with each release. These small glitches are easily over looked by a few factors, IMO:
One, the world creation and storyline are first-rate. Truly breathtaking and engaging. Have have not seen this kind of depth in world-creation since Tolkien and the Wheel of Time series.
Two, as I mentioned, Buckley is getting better, as the story continues. It feels, at least to me--that he's having more fun with the story...compared to Prelude to a Hero.
Three, his eBook formatting is better than many New York Times Bestselling books I've paid ten times the price for! An Indie author with a better quality book? Seems to be the case with Buckley.
Four, the more I read about this author, the more interested I get. He's linking projects together. He's a dad with eleven freaking kids!! I can see where he might get some inspiration from, hehe.
I don't know where this storyline is going...but I'm hitching along for the full ride!
There will always, always be someone with more talent, intelligence, insight, connections, popularity...and the list goes on. So what. You need to learn to be the best Leisha you can be. Look inward, not outward. Use what you admire in others as inspiration, but not a focus or a comparison. It turns to poison if you're not careful.
You're trying to craft and carve something out for yourself, not to take the place of someone else.
Does that make sense?
Just want to encourage you